Long time

Hello. Long time no write. Many things have happened. I'm in a reflective mood..

Got engaged, and getting married this October. Very excited!
Got a new job, and have moved about an hour north. It is old stomping ground, and very strange to be up here. I went to college here and this is the place I learned and grew in my spirituality. People have moved on so its weird to be back. We are about a 5 min walk from a pagan store and that is really neat. Reestablishing a social life will be nice as well. I have a reiki room in our new place, which is wonderful! I'll be able to keep my table out all the time. I hope to start giving reiki treatments once I am all settled. I think that is it for now. I am feeling reflective, and a bit sad. I miss the past I suppose and all the fun/exciting times I had here and now most people have moved on. The wheel continues to turn....

mmm Mabon

Hello there. Fall is here...officially tomorrow. Happy Mabon to everyone! (pagan name for fall equinox). There is a new tv show on Bio, "Celebrity Nightmares". Its pretty neat...there is a dream decoder who analyzes celebrity's nightmares. Actually a few of them hit home with me. I'd recommend watching it if you are at all interested in dreams. I believe it is on Saturday nights, at 10 or 11. Ok, that's all for now!

Many Blessings

hot hot September!

Happy September everyone! Though, you would think its July up here in Maine. 95 degrees and humid for the last 3 days. NOT fun! Though, hurricane Earl is on his way up and that will bring nice cool air. :) I look forward to a good storm.

So, fall is my favorite season and can't wait to decorate. my friend got me a candle, my favorite scent, pumpkin spice! yum. I feel so alive in the all, perhaps because its comfortable, cool and dry, and the leaves are pretty. I love the smells too. I also feel more connected spiritually as well...as the veil thins. :)

I have been thinking of something lately, thought I'd share here. Ever look at babies, and have them literally look right through you? Some kids..most i'd say, are so intelligent, and connected to the other side its scary! They know exactly whats going on, and as they grow they lose that connection (not all of them). I love to communicate telepathically with them and have them give me a big knowing smile! its great. hehe I cannot wait to have children, and some them my pagan ways (evil laughter) hehe. Of course, I will let them choose what path they'd like but I plan on raising them pagan.

Ok, so I have tendonitis in my right wrist, so I need to stop typing! :-p

blessings to all!

Fallll and Jesus

Hello world. Fall is on its way...though a bit early this year. Typically in Maine, leaves start changing late September, early October. Usually most of the leaves have fallen by Samhain, nice to crunch in during trick-or-treating! But, this year the leaves are already starting to change, and its August. Very odd...I attribute it to the hot weather and lack of rain. Hopefully the trees aren't bare in a month! The foliage is one of my favorite things about fall.

So, my mundane life has been pretty crazy. Stuff going on at work and so on, so once again my spiritual life has gone on the back burner. Its always a struggle, at least for me...getting caught up in mundane things such as work and money...when all what really matters is love, family and happiness. I'm working on it. I am really enjoying the turning of the wheel...I'm ready for fall. Stores are already putting out Halloween decorations. We've been invited to a Halloween party, which will be fun. I want to start decorating our apartment, but I will force myself to wait until September! haha. I wish I had more harvest-y decorations, like a fall wreath. Mmmm and fall scented candles..my favorite is pumpkin spice. It will be fun, since this will be our first time in our own place for the holidays...except for an apartment we had in 2007 but we were in college so it was different.

I've been feeling connected again the last few days with God. Its great. Also, been communicating/thinking about Jesus lately. He's a great guy. Some of you are probably like "WHAT?! Shes a pagan! No Jesus!" But, I have an interesting view/relationship with him. I've always felt "different" and haven't agreed with much of Christian teachings. However, I believe Jesus existed, and was a great prophet. He's amazing, just as Buddha and Moses were amazing. I had a dream years ago about Jesus, and that I touched just one of his hairs from his head, and I was filled with a wonderful feeling. A similar feeling to what I feel when I feel God or Goddess's love. It was amazing, and we were communicating, without speaking, how he loves me, and knows that my life's path involves being pagan and he's fine with that. I truly believe there are numerous paths to God, and God doesn't care which one you take. Christianity is really easy for some people to swallow, others not. I believe Jesus gets this, and doesn't care...as long as you love, and treat people with dignity and respect. That's what its all about, not sins and repentance and saints...demons...its about love. That's what Jesus preached. So, now that I've gone on and on about Jesus...

I should get back to work. I love having multiple spiritual guides in my life. I feel very connected to the other side. I'm satisfied with my relationship with Jesus, and every other being I talk to. It feels absolutely wonderful.

I'm interested in what others think about Jesus...and their personal relationship with him. Anyone have a similar relationship to mine? Remeber, this is a place for discussion not lecturing. I am on my path, and no one will be able to convert me, so please don't try. I'm just generally interested if people have simular feelings.

Life Long Learning

Hello out there. Been reading a lot lately, and on my bookshelf currently is "Beyond the Indigo Children: The New Children and the coming of the Fifth World" by P.M.H Atwater and "History of Witchcraft and Demonology" by Montaque Summers. I'm about half way through with Beyond the Indigo, and I like it so far. She talks a lot about 2012, and the new generation "the millenials" which is my generation, 1982-2001. Very cool stuff, and goes along with a lot of beliefs I have about the new world and how things will change. I love being privy to the other planes of existence...to have a clue as to what is going on on the "other side'. I have felt a great level of anticipation, ever since watching the ball drop on new years eve 2007. Its was like this energy shift. Each year it gets stronger. I also know my children will be a major part of this shift (as all will be, the new generation). I'm so glad I am alive during this time in our history...people have been talking about it for thousands of years. We are all very lucky.

High-Frequency

Hello out there. I've been rather in-tune lately. It feels like my brain has stepped up a notch and is working over time. I feel when I am looking at people, I'm really looking at them. Its been interesting. Also been having lots of dreams, some of them scary but they are more vivid than before. Also, I've been on the same 'frequency' as a lot of people, thinking the same thoughts before they say it has happened multiple times a week this past week. Its cool, and strange. I'm just in tune I suppose. Its nice. I like being in tune with that side of my life all the time.

I want to take Reiki I this summer, just need to save the money and pick a date, since my friend is a reiki master. I'm excited to start healing. I think I'll be good at it. Also pagan pride day is coming up in about a month I believe.

That's about it for now. Many blessings!

More pagany goodies

Hello again.
Loving the pagan life. Its been more on the "front burner" the last few weeks, and feels great.

So, more about the Ouija.
So, I got the urge to use it, and we probably hadn't used it in at least a year and a half. I made sure we did it "right" this time, and lit candles and used crystals for protection. Stated our intent, and gave the board energy. A few spirits came through. First we talked with a man named Biff, who claimed to have died in 2006 at age 57. He also claimed to live in our building. He stated he had a message, "Help JF" and repeated this numerous times. Not sure what it means and he didn't elaborate. Then we spoke with a spirit who appeared to be African. He stated he had been my mother's father in a previous life, and her name was Taka. It was interesting. Then, a 4 year old boy came through. His name was Abraham, and he lived on a farm near by. It was sad, as he said he was scared of hell because his family "fell from god." who could make that up? really haha. He also said "I dug a hole" not sure what that was. He also asked if we were dead. So, we helped him a bit by reassuring him he was safe and not going to hell.

Last spirit to come through for the night was an 87 year old woman from Delaware. She claimed to be my future daughter! I have had similar experiences with the Ouija, as well as psychic experiences with my future children so it wasn't too big a surprise. She kept calling Toby "Dad" it was cute. She also said she was my daughter in a previous life. I had learned about this previous life in a past Ouija session with a spirit who claimed to be my mother from that life. It was in the 1920's, my name was Naomi and Toby's nick name was "Little Nickle". We were married, but he died around 1924 or 26 and it really affected me. This makes sense because when we started dating, I was terrified he'd leave me.

Anyway, the woman's name was Dede and she said she would be born in 2019, and be our 5th child. This was a surprise, because all readings I'd had previously said 3 or 4 children. So, we were both shocked. She said she and the 4th child (a boy) would be adopted. Which does make sense to me, because I'm adopted and work in the social work field. It was really interesting. I think the most interesting part was when she said "read the wiccan rede. I liked it" haha! that was neat and unexpected. She also gave an address...9 Toby Rd. Well, she said "Address 9 Dad" and we asked a few more clarifying questions and she said it was 9 Toby Rd. In Waterville. We later found out this doesn't exist, but there is one in a few neighboring towns.

So it was a really cool experience and I've started keeping a log of who we talk too.

Also, I went to the library and got out a photo-instructional book on Reiki, which I like, and John Edward's "Crossing Over"

I really enjoy learning and developing my skills. Thats all for now!

Blessings!