mmm Mabon

Hello there. Fall is here...officially tomorrow. Happy Mabon to everyone! (pagan name for fall equinox). There is a new tv show on Bio, "Celebrity Nightmares". Its pretty neat...there is a dream decoder who analyzes celebrity's nightmares. Actually a few of them hit home with me. I'd recommend watching it if you are at all interested in dreams. I believe it is on Saturday nights, at 10 or 11. Ok, that's all for now!

Many Blessings

hot hot September!

Happy September everyone! Though, you would think its July up here in Maine. 95 degrees and humid for the last 3 days. NOT fun! Though, hurricane Earl is on his way up and that will bring nice cool air. :) I look forward to a good storm.

So, fall is my favorite season and can't wait to decorate. my friend got me a candle, my favorite scent, pumpkin spice! yum. I feel so alive in the all, perhaps because its comfortable, cool and dry, and the leaves are pretty. I love the smells too. I also feel more connected spiritually as well...as the veil thins. :)

I have been thinking of something lately, thought I'd share here. Ever look at babies, and have them literally look right through you? Some kids..most i'd say, are so intelligent, and connected to the other side its scary! They know exactly whats going on, and as they grow they lose that connection (not all of them). I love to communicate telepathically with them and have them give me a big knowing smile! its great. hehe I cannot wait to have children, and some them my pagan ways (evil laughter) hehe. Of course, I will let them choose what path they'd like but I plan on raising them pagan.

Ok, so I have tendonitis in my right wrist, so I need to stop typing! :-p

blessings to all!

Fallll and Jesus

Hello world. Fall is on its way...though a bit early this year. Typically in Maine, leaves start changing late September, early October. Usually most of the leaves have fallen by Samhain, nice to crunch in during trick-or-treating! But, this year the leaves are already starting to change, and its August. Very odd...I attribute it to the hot weather and lack of rain. Hopefully the trees aren't bare in a month! The foliage is one of my favorite things about fall.

So, my mundane life has been pretty crazy. Stuff going on at work and so on, so once again my spiritual life has gone on the back burner. Its always a struggle, at least for me...getting caught up in mundane things such as work and money...when all what really matters is love, family and happiness. I'm working on it. I am really enjoying the turning of the wheel...I'm ready for fall. Stores are already putting out Halloween decorations. We've been invited to a Halloween party, which will be fun. I want to start decorating our apartment, but I will force myself to wait until September! haha. I wish I had more harvest-y decorations, like a fall wreath. Mmmm and fall scented candles..my favorite is pumpkin spice. It will be fun, since this will be our first time in our own place for the holidays...except for an apartment we had in 2007 but we were in college so it was different.

I've been feeling connected again the last few days with God. Its great. Also, been communicating/thinking about Jesus lately. He's a great guy. Some of you are probably like "WHAT?! Shes a pagan! No Jesus!" But, I have an interesting view/relationship with him. I've always felt "different" and haven't agreed with much of Christian teachings. However, I believe Jesus existed, and was a great prophet. He's amazing, just as Buddha and Moses were amazing. I had a dream years ago about Jesus, and that I touched just one of his hairs from his head, and I was filled with a wonderful feeling. A similar feeling to what I feel when I feel God or Goddess's love. It was amazing, and we were communicating, without speaking, how he loves me, and knows that my life's path involves being pagan and he's fine with that. I truly believe there are numerous paths to God, and God doesn't care which one you take. Christianity is really easy for some people to swallow, others not. I believe Jesus gets this, and doesn't care...as long as you love, and treat people with dignity and respect. That's what its all about, not sins and repentance and saints...demons...its about love. That's what Jesus preached. So, now that I've gone on and on about Jesus...

I should get back to work. I love having multiple spiritual guides in my life. I feel very connected to the other side. I'm satisfied with my relationship with Jesus, and every other being I talk to. It feels absolutely wonderful.

I'm interested in what others think about Jesus...and their personal relationship with him. Anyone have a similar relationship to mine? Remeber, this is a place for discussion not lecturing. I am on my path, and no one will be able to convert me, so please don't try. I'm just generally interested if people have simular feelings.

Life Long Learning

Hello out there. Been reading a lot lately, and on my bookshelf currently is "Beyond the Indigo Children: The New Children and the coming of the Fifth World" by P.M.H Atwater and "History of Witchcraft and Demonology" by Montaque Summers. I'm about half way through with Beyond the Indigo, and I like it so far. She talks a lot about 2012, and the new generation "the millenials" which is my generation, 1982-2001. Very cool stuff, and goes along with a lot of beliefs I have about the new world and how things will change. I love being privy to the other planes of existence...to have a clue as to what is going on on the "other side'. I have felt a great level of anticipation, ever since watching the ball drop on new years eve 2007. Its was like this energy shift. Each year it gets stronger. I also know my children will be a major part of this shift (as all will be, the new generation). I'm so glad I am alive during this time in our history...people have been talking about it for thousands of years. We are all very lucky.

High-Frequency

Hello out there. I've been rather in-tune lately. It feels like my brain has stepped up a notch and is working over time. I feel when I am looking at people, I'm really looking at them. Its been interesting. Also been having lots of dreams, some of them scary but they are more vivid than before. Also, I've been on the same 'frequency' as a lot of people, thinking the same thoughts before they say it has happened multiple times a week this past week. Its cool, and strange. I'm just in tune I suppose. Its nice. I like being in tune with that side of my life all the time.

I want to take Reiki I this summer, just need to save the money and pick a date, since my friend is a reiki master. I'm excited to start healing. I think I'll be good at it. Also pagan pride day is coming up in about a month I believe.

That's about it for now. Many blessings!

More pagany goodies

Hello again.
Loving the pagan life. Its been more on the "front burner" the last few weeks, and feels great.

So, more about the Ouija.
So, I got the urge to use it, and we probably hadn't used it in at least a year and a half. I made sure we did it "right" this time, and lit candles and used crystals for protection. Stated our intent, and gave the board energy. A few spirits came through. First we talked with a man named Biff, who claimed to have died in 2006 at age 57. He also claimed to live in our building. He stated he had a message, "Help JF" and repeated this numerous times. Not sure what it means and he didn't elaborate. Then we spoke with a spirit who appeared to be African. He stated he had been my mother's father in a previous life, and her name was Taka. It was interesting. Then, a 4 year old boy came through. His name was Abraham, and he lived on a farm near by. It was sad, as he said he was scared of hell because his family "fell from god." who could make that up? really haha. He also said "I dug a hole" not sure what that was. He also asked if we were dead. So, we helped him a bit by reassuring him he was safe and not going to hell.

Last spirit to come through for the night was an 87 year old woman from Delaware. She claimed to be my future daughter! I have had similar experiences with the Ouija, as well as psychic experiences with my future children so it wasn't too big a surprise. She kept calling Toby "Dad" it was cute. She also said she was my daughter in a previous life. I had learned about this previous life in a past Ouija session with a spirit who claimed to be my mother from that life. It was in the 1920's, my name was Naomi and Toby's nick name was "Little Nickle". We were married, but he died around 1924 or 26 and it really affected me. This makes sense because when we started dating, I was terrified he'd leave me.

Anyway, the woman's name was Dede and she said she would be born in 2019, and be our 5th child. This was a surprise, because all readings I'd had previously said 3 or 4 children. So, we were both shocked. She said she and the 4th child (a boy) would be adopted. Which does make sense to me, because I'm adopted and work in the social work field. It was really interesting. I think the most interesting part was when she said "read the wiccan rede. I liked it" haha! that was neat and unexpected. She also gave an address...9 Toby Rd. Well, she said "Address 9 Dad" and we asked a few more clarifying questions and she said it was 9 Toby Rd. In Waterville. We later found out this doesn't exist, but there is one in a few neighboring towns.

So it was a really cool experience and I've started keeping a log of who we talk too.

Also, I went to the library and got out a photo-instructional book on Reiki, which I like, and John Edward's "Crossing Over"

I really enjoy learning and developing my skills. Thats all for now!

Blessings!

Ouiji

Hello out there.

I've been getting the itch to use the Ouija for a while. Before talking about our last adventure, here is some of my history of the Ouija:

When I was around 10 or so, my Mom got us a Ouija board and her, myself and my younger sister played. All I remember was that it was very slow, and we made contact with my cousin who had passed over. It was emotional, and that's all I really remember. I rediscovered the Ouija when I was around 14-16 and playing with it with my friends, like all teens do. Of course there was fair share of people moving it and so forth. One time my friend claimed she was channeling a girl but...once again I think that was imagination gone wild. There were a few experiences of cold drafts, and candles that burned really high...but other than that, nothing ever happened.

When I went to college and began experiencing the paranormal to a much higher degree, we started playing with it in our paranormal investigation club. At first, it was slow going. We'd have 2 or 3 people touching it, and one taking notes. We then tried "giving the board energy" and formed an energy ball around it. THEN things started happening! The Ouija board became a staple at each meeting as we explored the paranormal.

If I had to guess, we've spoken with at least 100 spirits. During my late college years (2007-2008) we spent a lot of time working with the Ouija. However, we hadn't used proper precautions. All we did basically before we began was giving the board energy, and asking "anyone there?" this led to interacting with a lot of interesting spirits. Many would just joke with us, and annoy us. For instance, one spirit said "Day of the dead soon" when we asked if they meant Halloween, it replied "no, Zombies." We had a good laugh at this one..but it would get annoying to get all of this joking type of information when we wanted helpful information. Another spirit told us to "Kill Bush" and that there was going to be an explosion over the summer of 07 in Maine, which of course never happened.

For the most part, we came in contact with people who were lonely and just wanted to talk. Most knew they were dead, and were lost in a sea of darkness. Others wanted help, others were happily with their loved ones and just wanted to play with the board. Some where children, the youngest I believe was 3 or 4. Up to old professors, farmers and so forth. We've even had different nationalities come through...but especially African for some reason. Most of the time we were just chatting with normal people.

Sometimes, something more interesting would come through. Once, a guy "Bob" was writing an article about our club and came to observe a meeting. A man came through on the Ouija, stating information we didn't understand. We asked who we was trying to communicate with, and the plancet went right off the board in the direction of this guy. The spirit identified himself as this Bob's father. Confused, we asked the Bob for more info. Bob informed us that his father had passed away a few months ago. The spirit then delivered a message, something about an object being in a drawer he wanted Bob to have. Bob never came back to another meeting, so we are unsure if he found the object. This was a very interesting meeting, and we most certainly had never met Bob, or knew anything about him.

Another time, a friend came to observe. Once again we have no clue who will show up, and it so happens that this girl's father, who had died about 2 years previous, came through. It was very emotional, and unexpected. I think the girl was thankful for the experience, but it definitely wasn't our intentions to bring her father forward.

On numerous occasions during our Ouiji session, the spirits would leave saying they had to go because "he" was coming. When "he" would come, a very cold spot would be felt to my right. The spirits told us he was death. Death kept the worlds separate, and he did not like the dead talking to the living. It was very odd, and we did not really think it was death..but it certainly did seem to impact the spirits around it.

Once, a very clear message came through. The spirit said he was asleep, and he had taken drugs. He then told us it was a suicide attempt, and he did not want to die anymore, and was scared. Of course, this terrified us and we asked for more information. This spirit gave us a name, a residence hall and room number. As we are about to rush off to find out if this is real, I remember that I had run into a really angry/mean spirit in that particular residence hall. I decided it would be best if I didn't go, as this spirit had attacked me before and I didn't want to go to its territory. So, a few members of the team went..and the name on the door did not match the name we were given. It was a very interesting experience, and I feel it shows the power of the Ouija and how it can be used as a manipulation tool by spirits (or whoever else).

I learned through this experience to ALWAYS protect myself, state my purpose "only spirits coming from a place of love are allowed to speak" and so forth. Since I've started doing that, no negative/manipulative spirits have come through.

Ok, now that I've posted all that...I need a break haha. I'll write out last night's experiences at another date.

be careful out there!

Livin' the Pagan Life

Hello cyber world. No updates in a long time! Nothing big happened, mundane life just got in the way. New job going well. Still enjoy where we are living. The wheel has turned once again and we are enjoying summer like weather here in Maine. I'm lucky enough to have a lot of birds near my complex, and lovely trees. We also have a deck which I love to sit on and write. My spirituality has again taken a back seat, as often it can, when "real world" worries come in to play. I don't like putting that part of me on pause and I am working on incorporating it all together.

I love knowledge. Its been a year since I graduated from grad school and I'm getting the itch to learn again. So, I got some books on tarot, therapeutic touch and natural healing. I've really enjoyed them! I definitely want to keep reading, and even better they came from the library so I didn't have to spend any money. My skills for tarot are developing, as are my reiki/therapeutic touch. I'm not trained in reiki, yet. Basically right now its a money issue. Hopefully this summer I can get reiki I.

My boyfriend and I are working on developing our dream...owning a pagan shop/community center where classes are offered, groups, workshops and of course reiki, readings and the store. We are really excited, and a recent tarot card reading I had signified that this was "what I was meant to do". I've always wanted to be a child therapist, and right now I'm doing family therapy. The tarot reader said I'd do child therapy, but I'd think it wasn't what I thought it would be, and we'd start the business. Also, my boyfriend got into college to study business. He already has a degree in theater, but has had a horrible time finding a job. (He'd love to do theater, but realizes he can't make a living that way). So, he's going to learn the ins and outs of owning/running a business. I am very proud of him. A while ago, he got a reading from one of our pagan friends, who said he'd have his own shop when he's 30. He's almost 27 now, so it makes perfect sense. I'm really excited.

I've also been paying attention to a yahoo group I joined years ago, Central Maine Pagans. They are now hosting a coffee talk in Augusta that I want to check out. There will also be a central Maine pagan pride day in October which will be neat.

Ok fellow path seekers, off to earn a living!
Many blessings!

Movin' on

Hello readers. I write to you from my work office, at my new job. So, we have moved to a new place. Left behind our small group of pagan friends (and our new coven) and this stinks. We don't know anyone here, and there are no new age stores (to our knowledge). However, we have been very positive and know that this is the right move for us. I have been saying for years I have felt drawn to this area and that we would one day end up here.

I do however miss the friendship and understanding of our group. We will try to attend channeling group once a month (currently its twice a month on Saturdays) since going to all of them would be draining travel wise (and gas $$ wise). We are about 2 hours from where our groups meet. We will also try to attend sabatts/esbatts if they fall on weekends. I was really excited about the coven, and I know we will continue to work with them.

Plus, one of our friends from this circle of people just had a stroke, and its hard that we are not with our other friends for support. She is fine, but it is scary and she is currently in rehab. She was only 50, so this was very unexpected.

When we moved into our apartment, we cleansed it and burn candles frequently to keep the energy positive. We keep the apartment clean (unlike previous residences) as it really does keep the energy fresh and positive. I have set up an alter, which is nice since I haven't had one for a while. We had some form of a spirit in our closet. I didn't notice at first, it was more of a "if there was a spirit in this house, it would be the closet!) But the first night we slept there, I realized there WAS a spirit in the closet! He didn't come out, but he was looking at me- and I don't like that to much. He wasn't mean, or trying to hurt me. The next day, I cleansed the closet, and told him he needed to move on, and only loving energy was here now. I tried to show him the way to the light. He seemed interested in what I was saying, and gave it thought. I do not believe he has fully crossed over, but his presence has lessened and I am no longer afraid to leave the door open. I don't feel like he is staring at me. I think he feels safe with us, and spends more of his time now on the other side. As for more information on him...all I know is he is a man, around 35 or so, and I think he died from hanging...when I first went to investigate, I got suicide by hanging and was nervous he had done it in our closet (but, there isn't anything to hang on). So, I think he died close by, possibly by suicide and some how was attracted to this apartment. I feel a sad/sorrow feeling, and that he was a loving, but sad man in life.

So, that's where I am now. Life is pretty good...in transition. I hope to keep up my practice of witch craft because it does make me feel more balanced. Sadly, I needed to take off some of my pagan bumper stickers, since I will be visiting families and do not want them to feel intimidated of me or make false judgements. A few years ago, I wouldn't have cared but I've grown up, and am not stupid! I can be "pagan and proud" without my car saying so. Though I do plan to get more "accepted" ones like Love & Peace and so on.

Lastly, me and my boyfriend have been reading about feng-shui , (sp?)and its very interesting. We are trying to feng-shui our apartment. Very neat stuff.

Love and light to you all!